Habakkuk 3: 16- 19

 Habakkuk 3: 16- 19

I hear, and my body trembles;

    my lips quiver at the sound;

rottenness enters into my bones;

    my legs tremble beneath me.

Yet I will quietly wait for the day of trouble

    to come upon people who invade us.

Though the fig tree should not blossom,

    nor fruit be on the vines,

the produce of the olive fail

    and the fields yield no food,

the flock be cut off from the fold

    and there be no herd in the stalls,

 

yet I will rejoice in the Lord;

     I will take joy in the God of my salvation.

 

God, the Lord, is my strength;

     he makes my feet like the deer's;  

he makes me tread on my high places

The above passage speaks to my heart: every time I read it. I am assured of the love and goodness of God.

2011- What a year!!!

As I sit here in my room, the year is almost over and my term as HK has ended. It all feels so surreal, as if none of the things that happened this year actually took place. My term has HK in this residence has shown me the depths of my depravity. I have learnt what I am capable of, the things my mind can think, the words my mouth can utter, the feelings of rage bordering on hate I have felt countless times. O how the love of Christ can easily become like a switch in my head that I can turn on and off at my convenience.

I have cried myself to sleep most nights, or at least longed for tears to come when my hardened heart would not respond to anything. There have been times when laughter felt out of reach and happy people were a reminder of life that happened out there while I remained in despair. I thank God that when in His Sovereignty allowed me the opportunity to be part of the leadership team in this residence, He knew that He would carry m through it all.

I can go on about the times when I felt my life was worthless, when I woke and dreaded the day ahead, when life for me had lost meaning and all was pointless. But that would not be a full representation of the year. I have met wonderful people, who have taught me valuable life lessons. I have laughed, grieved with and enjoyed precious moments with people I would not have known if it was not for this HK season in my life.

Christianity for me ceased to be an idea or a teaching that I received in meetings but it became my reality. I praise God continuously for all the opportunities that I have had where the Bible was taught to me faithfully, where people invested in my walk with Jesus and prayed for me. Because it was those very times that when all else was fading away, I would recall the teachings, the prayers and that which has come to grip my heart the most- JESUS.

I must say, I feel different after all of this. I have learnt and I grown from everything. I thank God for shaping, yes even through HK. To the friends who were concerned and prayed for me even when I kept pushing them away- thank you for being a physical display of the pursuit and perseverance that God is for us all.

Outgoing Amper Daar HK La Chanteuse Precious Makhubu;
Precious Xolile

Discipleship Group

What is this concept of discipleship groups?

like most people know, i am the last person to make even a comment on this.I know that we are each called to live lives with each other and that does not only mean, put on a mask and go to your so called friends. No, actually, it is the exact opposite. We are to be vulnerable with each other, we are to be completely transparent with one another. Do not ask me what that means because at the moment the Lord is teaching me a new degree of authenticity.

This is not to have those regular chats with the group of people you are used to, no. It is to have those uncomfortable conversations with the people God has placed in your life. We are to live with each other like Jesus lived with His disciples.

I thank God always for having granted me the opportunity this year to do life with the 3 girls I am leading. I will not lie and say that I have been a good leader because in my opinion, I am still to meet such a person. I believe Jesus is the only One who led perfectly.

I am learning to be a leader and a friend to these woman who are trying to follow me as I follow Jesus. So far I can say with great confidence that the Lord has been working in each of theirs lives and He has been working in all of us together as sisters who are trying to love and live for Him on a daily basis.

I thank God that even when I am panicking and it feels like nothing is going right. He remains God and faithful in it all.

My prayer for us as sisters is that He would: Teach us your ways, oh Lord and we will walk in your Truth. Give us undivided hearts that we may fear your name.